It's a good question, but it's also totally meaningless. ....... see what I mean? It implies Control... and to answer would be to attatch to a thing

Ireland, I've read.  : )  It means: "handsome brave warrior."  I might have chosen a name with less bravado attached, but I suppose it fits?  lol  I like the 'warrior' part, that feels right at least...

'cause among other things, I be source's marine, the once and future me. 

Dig?  : -D

This is a tangent to my last entry... I'd like to leave that on a brighter note, really.  :  )  

Because when people think of such things, they often think of fire brimstone and other scary things that have nothing at all to do with.  I hope to suggest that I'm talking about has very little to do with the scary image, surely planted in the collective psyche, of the seeker walking in deserts with a burning cross, bloody and barefoot. 

 No, it is about, simply, cosmic love.  Cosmic love is the means and the end, the action and the reward...  

And it rewards in so many ways.  Here's a story that illustrates one way:   Upon awakening I understood karma, and when I understood karma, I understood the necessity to transmute my karma, to cleanse it, to purify it, however it should be looked on. 

So I went about doing so... and soon afterwards, every trip to the mirror caused a bit of a shock to me.  Suddenly years were falling off my face... instead of looking 5 years younger than I am, I became ageless looking... I started being able to pass for a highschool student... (people would ask: what school do you go to?  Then look confused when I said: "I'm not in school.")  

I also started being able to eat almost anything, and not gain significant weight at all.  In fact, my body seemed to spontaneously tone itself.  I grew muscles.  I lost fat deposits.  something appeared on my stomach that looked suspiciously like the hint of a six-pack.  

And I wondered if the change was all in my head, but then I went home.  My mom picked me up from the airport, and when she saw me, her eyes got big as spinning plates.  "You... you look like you did when you were a BABY!"  she said.  In fact, she said the same thing over and over, in different ways.  I assured her that yes, I had noticed, but didn't go to deep into the cause.  : )  (I'd already tried to tell her, but clearly the timing was wrong.)   A family friend later saw me and said basically the same thing-- that I look as I did when I was five...

cut to:   10 months later.  A woman very close to me, who had been passively suicidal for going on ten years, and I became roomates.  Much of my intention, well sanctioned by my higher self and the superconsciousness of the uni-verse, was to facilitate the process of karma transmutation and the awakening of the woman's self to the wonderful freedom of creatoin in all of us. 

Not something I could ever do for her, of course.  And yet still, after a few months of patient application on my part, and efforton hers, it happened.  The breakthrough.    It was so beautiful to see...  

and guess what?  afterwards, 15 years dropped off her face.  No kidding.  I could watch it more objectively this time.  a 40 year old, she went from working out for hours daily (despite the inconvenience) to hardly working out at all, and in so doing both lost weight and gained tone.  Lined vanished from her face.  Her eyes un-sunk.  She could be 22. 
 
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The sun that shines in the morning has no impetus to wake up sleeping humans, it only wants to shine as much light as possible.  And yet, in the presense of that very bright and lovely morning light, a sleeping human must either somehow reaffirm darkness (usually by pulling blinds) or be awoken.  Consideri the oneness of all, and cosmic love, which is light; are we humans so fundamentally different from the sun? 

See you around, you crazy diamonds...

YOU are the custodian of this earth.  YOU are.

We are made of source: source yearns for itself.